Dear ____,
I'm sorry.
Love
Stupid me.
9/02/2010
8/25/2010
I've just been wondering. Wondering if one of the reasons, why I dislike most of my art is because there's just no background to it. Background as in a story that backs it up, a proper idea.
All I draw is random fluff or porn or both. Never anything that just tells a story. =/
At leats that's what I'm feeling.
Blarg.
I feel like I have no ideas, baw. So everything just seems boring.
That sucks, because I like stuff that actually illustrates things and does more than just look pretty.
All I draw is random fluff or porn or both. Never anything that just tells a story. =/
At leats that's what I'm feeling.
Blarg.
I feel like I have no ideas, baw. So everything just seems boring.
That sucks, because I like stuff that actually illustrates things and does more than just look pretty.
8/22/2010
This is going to sound stupid and super whiney, but I just wanted to write it down. Usually makes me feel better about myself in the end.
Fandom makes me feel useless.
For some reason, I've always valued Fic more than Art.
I can't write, I suck at it actually.
My drawings are rather mediocre.
So, most people > me already.
(Especially in a fandom like Inception, where there are a lot of great authors.)
I'm also not as smart as most people, rather slow on the uptake, not witty enough, not talented enough and yeah, well.
I feel like I've nothing to contribute. I'm somewhat of a jealous and pretentious bitch too. Whenever I see art pop up, that's obviously above my own level, I feel let down. Why are you even bothering drawing, if there's people better than you to do it? Whenever I see stuff that's... bad, I don't bother giving it a secound glance.
It's hard to me to actually believe people enjoy the things I post, I've never reacted too well to positive feedback. I feel annoying and like some stupid attention whore.
I love drawing, I really do, but It's like I'm making no progress, like I can just never be enough for myself. So how could what I do ever be enough for others?
And I've spent soo much time on just.. practising lately too, to just make it better and yet I can't ever seem to be happy with what I do.
And while I've always been more of a lurker, it does feel rather lonely at times.
Ugh, tldr. I should just QQ moar.
I've spent soo much time visiting psychiatrists and yet nothing changed. xD
Fandom makes me feel useless.
For some reason, I've always valued Fic more than Art.
I can't write, I suck at it actually.
My drawings are rather mediocre.
So, most people > me already.
(Especially in a fandom like Inception, where there are a lot of great authors.)
I'm also not as smart as most people, rather slow on the uptake, not witty enough, not talented enough and yeah, well.
I feel like I've nothing to contribute. I'm somewhat of a jealous and pretentious bitch too. Whenever I see art pop up, that's obviously above my own level, I feel let down. Why are you even bothering drawing, if there's people better than you to do it? Whenever I see stuff that's... bad, I don't bother giving it a secound glance.
It's hard to me to actually believe people enjoy the things I post, I've never reacted too well to positive feedback. I feel annoying and like some stupid attention whore.
I love drawing, I really do, but It's like I'm making no progress, like I can just never be enough for myself. So how could what I do ever be enough for others?
And I've spent soo much time on just.. practising lately too, to just make it better and yet I can't ever seem to be happy with what I do.
And while I've always been more of a lurker, it does feel rather lonely at times.
Ugh, tldr. I should just QQ moar.
8/10/2010
8/05/2010
Ordered a new pen today. =]
Thanks a lot to Mü and Arii.
(And I still need to know what I owe you guys!)
Commissions are still open if anyone is interested! Out of work and need the money. Haha.
Life's been kinda dull lately. Not having any school or work is well, just boring. You wake up in the morning and have no idea how to spend your day. Even my motivation to draw has been lacking as of late.
Also, how i draw kawaii desu desu shoujo? 20USD for a haöfbody like that. /shot
I've fallen in love with Lolita fashion quite recently. Classic Lolita to be exact. I love the dresses and decent ruffles. It makes me sad I'll never fit into something like that. 5' 7 1/2" is probably a little too tall and I'm not cute (mangry face) or thin (not yet a landwhale tho!) enough. But regardless of my looks - it's too damn expensive anyway. But so cute, ffff. I love dresses/skirts of that lenght.
I generally need a new wardrobe tho. Most of my stuff is pretty old - and too black. Sadface.
Thanks a lot to Mü and Arii.
(And I still need to know what I owe you guys!)
Commissions are still open if anyone is interested! Out of work and need the money. Haha.
Life's been kinda dull lately. Not having any school or work is well, just boring. You wake up in the morning and have no idea how to spend your day. Even my motivation to draw has been lacking as of late.
Also, how i draw kawaii desu desu shoujo? 20USD for a haöfbody like that. /shot
I've fallen in love with Lolita fashion quite recently. Classic Lolita to be exact. I love the dresses and decent ruffles. It makes me sad I'll never fit into something like that. 5' 7 1/2" is probably a little too tall and I'm not cute (mangry face) or thin (not yet a landwhale tho!) enough. But regardless of my looks - it's too damn expensive anyway. But so cute, ffff. I love dresses/skirts of that lenght.I generally need a new wardrobe tho. Most of my stuff is pretty old - and too black. Sadface.
7/17/2010
Commission Info
Will Do OCs (With visual reference), Site Avatars, Males, Females, Anthro (Chibi only.), Porn
Won't Do Too much detail, cluttered Avatars, all black
Offer
Chibi - 1 Character w/o BG - 20 USD (Includes one extra item or small animal.)
+12USD for an additional Character
Samples
Sketch - 1 Character Fullbody, simple Colours - 7 USD
+4 USD for aditinal Character
Sample 2
PayPal only.
Prices include paypal fees.
I will not start on your commission as long as I have not received the full amount for the commssion. If your commission is worth more than 50 USD, you'll pay half up-front, and the otehr half when I'm done and sent you the watermarked version.
If interested, mail me at kimihiro@gmx.net.
Please include at leats the following information:
Image Reference:
Character Info:
Payment:
Thank you. :U
Won't Do Too much detail, cluttered Avatars, all black
Offer
Chibi - 1 Character w/o BG - 20 USD (Includes one extra item or small animal.)
+12USD for an additional Character
Samples
Sketch - 1 Character Fullbody, simple Colours - 7 USD
+4 USD for aditinal Character
Sample 2
PayPal only.
Prices include paypal fees.
I will not start on your commission as long as I have not received the full amount for the commssion. If your commission is worth more than 50 USD, you'll pay half up-front, and the otehr half when I'm done and sent you the watermarked version.
If interested, mail me at kimihiro@gmx.net.
Please include at leats the following information:
Image Reference:
Character Info:
Payment:
Thank you. :U
7/15/2010
7/04/2010
So, I stared at myself in the mirror for over 5 minutes earlier and figured I'm still fat and ugly. Since I can't do much about my genes I suppose I'll have to at least start dieting properly. I want to lose about 10-15 kg and actually stay at that weight afterwards.
Anyone got any tips? =|
(No telling me: "You aren't fat." I'm unhappy with how I look like and I'm overweigjht in my own eyes, so I frankly don't care what others say about that.)
And because we were talking about dieting...
Hali and I were cooking again today and this time I actually looked up a proper recipe. Spaghetti Bolognese! Was tasty and a lot different convenience food stuff I usually eat. Takes a lot longer to prepare too and I had a Hali moaning about wanting to eat more than just the salad I gave her instead. She also might have added a little too much chilli to it.
No new art today, because Tegaki E killed my last picture and I don't have a scanner. =|
Reposting a pic I did for a FanFic author a while ago tho. It's crappy and not very detailed but I like it, so shh.
Also, rec me new DS games. :D
Anyone got any tips? =|
(No telling me: "You aren't fat." I'm unhappy with how I look like and I'm overweigjht in my own eyes, so I frankly don't care what others say about that.)
And because we were talking about dieting...
Hali and I were cooking again today and this time I actually looked up a proper recipe. Spaghetti Bolognese! Was tasty and a lot different convenience food stuff I usually eat. Takes a lot longer to prepare too and I had a Hali moaning about wanting to eat more than just the salad I gave her instead. She also might have added a little too much chilli to it.
No new art today, because Tegaki E killed my last picture and I don't have a scanner. =|
Reposting a pic I did for a FanFic author a while ago tho. It's crappy and not very detailed but I like it, so shh.
Also, rec me new DS games. :D
6/29/2010
We can cook!
Or not. Hali is here and we tried making something from scratch today. I think it was supposed to be something like curry, but I'm not quite certain.
YES, I KNOW IT DOESN'T LOOK LIKE CURRY.
I TOTALLY ADDED STUFF AT RANDOM.
Looking kinda gross I suppose. But it tastes better than it looks like. Like nothing.
We'll do better next time, I hope. My goal no longer rely on Maggi and Knorr. :D /shot
Anyway, no post without pictures, so I'll spam my Tegaki E stuff here. Having a tablet and computer available again is nice.
1- RANDOMMM. And weird colours. I like.
2- Random face doodle.
3- For a friend. Yes, the hips are freakishly broad, shhh. I was too lazy to fix and redraw them. Yes, I enjoy playing with bright colours.
4- I really like dark skintones. It's sexy.
I don't feel like I've improved in months. It's making me feel sad.
Anyway. Fishmen aren't sexy, that's why everyone just cares for mermaids.
YES, I KNOW IT DOESN'T LOOK LIKE CURRY.
I TOTALLY ADDED STUFF AT RANDOM.
Looking kinda gross I suppose. But it tastes better than it looks like. Like nothing.We'll do better next time, I hope. My goal no longer rely on Maggi and Knorr. :D /shot
Anyway, no post without pictures, so I'll spam my Tegaki E stuff here. Having a tablet and computer available again is nice.
2- Random face doodle.
3- For a friend. Yes, the hips are freakishly broad, shhh. I was too lazy to fix and redraw them. Yes, I enjoy playing with bright colours.
4- I really like dark skintones. It's sexy.
I don't feel like I've improved in months. It's making me feel sad.
Anyway. Fishmen aren't sexy, that's why everyone just cares for mermaids.
6/27/2010
FIRST POST.
Making a blog. How does this work.
I suppose I'll be posting random doodles here. Might as wlel start right away!
Castiel and Dean, Supernatual. Funny enough, I don't even ship those two. I was making fun of SPN Doujinshis yesterday and Hali then forced me to try draw the actors too. Uffff. No fun. I'm no good with realism or making people look like they do. Everythign done in paintchat
This is gay. But Cute.
Random. I need to darw proper stuff. Sue me.
I suppose I'll be posting random doodles here. Might as wlel start right away!
Castiel and Dean, Supernatual. Funny enough, I don't even ship those two. I was making fun of SPN Doujinshis yesterday and Hali then forced me to try draw the actors too. Uffff. No fun. I'm no good with realism or making people look like they do. Everythign done in paintchat
This is gay. But Cute.
Random. I need to darw proper stuff. Sue me.
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